Union with אלוהים
Love is as strong as death;
its jealousy unyielding as the grave.
Love’s flames are vehement flames of fire,
the very flame of Yah.
Many waters cannot quench love;
rivers cannot sweep it away.
Intimacy with a Holy God
One woman’s journey of walking with a kind God Who burns with ardent flames of love.
My Revelation on the Island of Patmos: Part 2 of 5
Can I Trust His Heart?
The pulsating electricity, the fiery burn and the spasms in my face ignited a grave desperation. Exhausted from pain, silently I pleaded with my God of mercy to help.
There was only silence, except for a hint of His Spirit saying, “I love you.” I sensed that Yeshua was weeping with me. Hearing these simple words and seeing Him in this intercessory role brought comfort that calmed and quieted my soul.
As beautiful as it was to see this picture of Yeshua, this was not the revelation on the island of Patmos that I had anticipated or wanted. At this point, I just wanted the pain to end.
Waiting for healing, fighting to believe, and enduring a debilitating disease that made me want to detach my head from my body, this is not the life I wanted.
In the throws of bitter suffering I was faced with a critical decision, “Could I trust God’s heart for me and His leadership over my life?”
Seeing Beauty During Surgery
The 8th Surgery
After seven brain and facial surgeries on my trigeminal nerve, I still had not yet experienced freedom from the sensations of electricity, burning and muscle spasms on the left side of my face.
For 11 years this chronic pain (trigeminal neuralgia) had inflicted me. Simple things like the rain, wind, lack of sleep, singing, touch, laughing, crying, etc. would trigger an attack. Sometimes attacks began for no reason at all.
The outer lining (the myelin sheath) of my trigeminal nerve had been damaged by surrounding blood vessels and an artery.
(For those unfamiliar with the anatomy, the trigeminal nerve originates in the brain stem and wraps over the ear and into the face with 3 primary branches and countless small branches.
In medicine it is known as the suicide disease and is considered one of the most painful diseases.)
The varying degrees of pain had been continual and were at times crippling me to extended periods in bed. To end the torment, I reluctantly agreed to an eighth surgery.
To my surprise, I needed to be awake for the surgery.
Niagara Falls Outpouring
Joel 2:28, 31
“I will pour out My Spirit on all flesh; Your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, ….Before the coming of the great and awesome day of the Lord.”
Driving down a long road in the flat, deserted lands of West Texas, I saw a vision of a waterfall coming out of the clouds and landing on my car. The waterfall remained on my car as I continued to drive.
